It all begin couple months ago. My digital advertising's teacher promise (or that's what I thought, forgot how people forget or lie) that she'll take 5 students who passed the class to be an intern in her company. I was so excited cause I've been looking for jobs ever since I was in my first semester in Jakarta. So I worked hard. Maybe not that hard, but I know a put a lot of efforts in that class, try to learn and analyze the task, try to understand the subject. God knows I try. I work harder than anyone in the class to have a good result, to learn and of course, to be ready once she call me back for the intern-promise. I have my CV sent to her right in time she asked me to.
So I wait. Patiently. I wait till the last day of final exam, I wait a little more after that. Still I wait cause I thought she probably wants to hire people after Ramadhan, and I wait a little longer thinks she maybe call when the result of test is done. Or officially sent from campus. Until this very day, there's no word from her.
And I gave up, thought I may failed the class. But I'm not. I got a A. A fucking damn A. And that's when I knew I should just give up.
And then good news come.
A friend of mine said that her boss could use some account executive intern for a local advertising agency. I thought that was great, I'll join. And in the very same moment, the other friend of mind said that Ogilvy needs a social media intern. That would be so cool and great and cool and awesome. So I sent my CV, expect nothing cause I'm just me. A fat stupid girl.
But they call me for an interview. I'm so excited I panicked. I thought I would cry over this and I'll be another student who come for a job and failed. But they mail me back, asked me to come again. I'm so glad cause they said that I might be suitable for the job. So I came. And it ain't job acceptance. It's another interview with different people.
Again, I'm in my mourning period. I cry for my lack of academy experience. Good scores doesn't mean anything at all. It really doesn't matter. The truth is I need this job so bad. I want this. I need to learn more, and school is never enough. It's like I'm thirst for knowledge in my own way.
On those two interview, I really didn't think twice when I answered their question. It feels more like chatting and share my thoughts rather than an interview. And that scares me even more.
I don't know what's gonna happen next. I try to not put any expectation on it, cause when life leads you in way you never thought you want, it'll hurt. No matter it's the right path for you or not it would be still hurt anyway. And pain is the worst. Most of the is overrated.
Anyway.
Whatever their answer is, whether I'm accepted or not, I just hope I'll be strong enough to face it. Being twenty-something is not easy.
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