Shake It Out

"If it's meant for you, you won't have to beg for it. You will never have to sacrifice your dignity for your destiny." - Chelsis Porter

 Like every people who stay in a relationship, sure I've been wondering if it's really meant to be. Me, him, us, together and maybe forever. There's so many hours times 3 years of this relationship that I spent thinking, arguing with myself whether this is a right path for happiness or not. Wondering if he's the one.

I used to think that's just some issues and I thought get through it but it's August and by the 28th it'll be officially (or not) 3 years been together. And somehow that scares me. A lot.

What if we don't make it through the fourth? What if we make it through the fourth, the fifth, the sixth and so on but I still feel the same. Break up is not the answer, I knew it cause I've been trying to broke up but somehow I keep coming back to him. Sometimes it feels like I lost my faith on everything. Well I already lost in but I never thought I'd lose it on him.

What is going on, and what the hell I'm actually searching for? Still I feel like I'm still waiting something that hasn't come yet.

I currently listening to Shake it Out by Florence + The Machines. She said, "It's always the darkest before the dawn."

I wonder.