Lately I find myself quite often thinking about relationship. The idea of serious dating-for-marriage actually freaks me out. Having someone to love, and one who loves you back is the dream. But when it comes to family, culture, and marriage is a whole different story.
Red and me comes from a different background. So it's normal that we have a different opinion almost at everything. And that's why we fight.
I'm not sure if I'm a real feminist, but I think I am. I believe in woman empowerment, but mostly because I'm Asian that lives to see how culture doesn't treat woman like the world should. For example, I'm not a baby-person. I'm more animal person, so please expect a lot of animals pictures, videos and Nat Geo's feed when you open my Instagram timeline. I love animal, care for them, dying to be parts of animal rescue team someday (and shot me cause I work in crazy office hours for 2 years because I am a junior of worthless). I even stop eating lamb and duck, which kinda tricky as my dad loves that. But I'm proud of myself for doing that.
Anyway, I'm not into babies. Won't touch it, won't have it......I guess. I'm 23 and so much going on, maybe it'll changes or maybe not. But it's my body and I can decide for myself.
But Red's dream is to have one or two. His dream is not me as his, but also me as his family. Mother of his child. And I'm not sure I want the same thing. I probably will change, or not, but I would like to stay in relationship when it's okay if I don't want to. I want to feel that it's okay if I'm being myself. Cause the truth is having babies is not a dream for me.
But Red's dream is to have one or two. His dream is not me as his, but also me as his family. Mother of his child. And I'm not sure I want the same thing. I probably will change, or not, but I would like to stay in relationship when it's okay if I don't want to. I want to feel that it's okay if I'm being myself. Cause the truth is having babies is not a dream for me.
My life goal is to marry someone I love, or just casually lives together, it doesn't matter as long as we love each other. But it's not that easy to have that kind of thoughts when you live in Indonesia. Even Jakarta. So yeah, marriage sounds good either.
Having kids.... Nope. Do you have any idea how much education cost? And milk and baby sitter and literally everything? I'm not that kind of girl who's dreaming about being someone's wife as a goal. Housewife, being a mothet isn't a career, it's a life choice. It's a hard job, but not the one I have in mind. My life goal is not take care of a baby in weekdays.
And how you explain yourself to your partner, that turns out you two had a very different dream about your future together.
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