Things are changed now. I feel bitter sometimes, but I laughed anyway most of the time.
For quick update, I'm still with Red now. Last year was a mess for both of us. We said things we didn't mean. I gave away my feelings to someone who don't deserve it, who clearly say I'm the number two. For a moment I was ready to face it, but later I realize how people take me for granted and I don't even know it. I took months to get better, but it gave me perspective of what an adult should do. What I'm gonna do when I older, and what I wish I will never do. Yellow's getting married and for a time a feel less of a woman. I feel hideous and blue, probably because he's my first love. Last year, I was ready to left him and start a new page. But he hold on, and I was ignoring it. But we're starting over, we talk, and now it feels like we're in a good phase. Better than ever!
I went to Seoul, South Korea for office's outing and it was a great experience. It makes me realize I didn't want this job forever. now I'm thinking to resign, but you know it's not that easy to pursue something for passion. It will costs you something, and I knew it's something I can't afford.
I'm into make ups now. I love lipstick. But I gain weight much more than I should, I'm back being a fatty now and that's sad. I should change that soon.
Anyway, talk to you soon.
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| Oh yes, I'm with the bangs now. |
