It's been a long time since I wrote a post. It's been a busy year anyway, full of hard work and achievement for both of us, me and Red.
I've got a permanent job even though I'm still on my 6th semester, try to work it out and give my best. Red had finished his thesis, and seek for a good job while he's waiting for graduation day next June. And things are fine, though it could be hard in some days but we're working on it and seems like we have fills one to another life everyday. But still, distance sucks. Even the tiniest.
Red's got into a motorcycle accident last Tuesday, and it broke my heart. It's the most serious accident he ever been. He cracked his right hand, injured his left hand and one twisted ankle. I didn't really worry at first because he told me it's okay, it's just a scratch. But he can lie forever so he told me the full story.
The first thing came on my mind is some kind of a prayer. Thank God, You took care of him.
I'm not really a religious person. I'm not sure whether my faith is faded away or I'm fall apart with God, even though deep down inside I know He's the only one who could save me. I have this distance with prayers and what happened to Red makes me feel like I really wanna go back to Him this time. I need Him in my life, of course, and I want to have a good relationship with Him as well.
Anyway. Yesterday I pay a visit to his house. There's a little stupid mistake of me to his father, which I'm sure it will make him hates me more (oh well I don't mind). But it makes me better to see him, and not because he's so much in pain. I helped his mother (or should I say, mother-in-law? lol :) changing his bandages and putting a traditional medicine to reduce his swelling hand. I have a good chit chat with his youngest sissy while he's falling asleep and I think we make a great bond.
It makes me realize so many things. Like, how much I love him and how much I really want to be with him. And how I started to accept things like, this is hard but it's real and it's worth to fight. Like literally, it's worth.
