Bitter Heart : No F, No R, No E

I'm not sure how much a heart can hold.
Has forever changed, lost the F, the R and first E, and it becomes over?

I'm not sure I understand you well. All these crap; distances, secrets, being strong and being patient, it's sucks. I'm freaking tired to deal with it everyday but still I did it any anyway because you are the biggest part of me I won't let go. Or at least that was what I thought. Maybe, like you said, the little voice in our heart had spoken. But sometimes, and I guess it feels like a habit, I lose my faith and need a good rest or maybe stop a little while.

But when you say it, it sounds different to me. I frankly don't know what to say. Or do. And imagine a life without you is something I never planned. Holding another man's hand or grow old with someone else is definitely not an ideal life I would have. No matter how mad you made me or how weird your annoying habits. Singing a lame song out of tune, who does that? You.

Are you really gonna go or what? The wise thing to do is let me know whether you're a war I need to win or a lesson to another story.

4 Letter Word

People say 'love' is 4 letter word. So does 'shit', and 'fuck'.
And that's a perfect line how to describe my life lately.

I say SHIT.
When it's 8 in the morning or 9 PM and I don't get a seat in the bus or too lazy to move my ass off to work or home. Or, when my favorite dress or shirt was sold out.

I say FUCK.
When I make mistake in work, or I got a C for test. I say it when people acts like jerks, I say it like every time and I loved saying that.

I say LOVE.
When my dogs are so thrilled to see me every time I went home. Every morning when I called Red, waking him up and every night when I'm comfy in my bed, ready to sleep and need heard his voice before I off to dream. Or when I'm in the office and suddenly missing him. And he will always knew how I feel even if we were holding hands in silence.

Anyway, I'm addicted to these songs. Love it!